new adventures

emptys

I’m back in cali now and life is quite beautiful. its 80 degrees and sunny, i’m back to my routine of my internship, working out, spending special time with friends and just loving unconditionally the way my saviour loves me. Yesterday my best friend RaeAnn and i and two other rad friends Myy, and Jessie went to the beach in this beautiful sunny weather we loved on each other e laughed goofed off it was definitely my favorite day of the year so far. then today we woke up i actually had breakfast and both my room mate and i were quite positive i spent family time with my small group family at a beautiful park, and just relaxed i went to church and heard an incredible sermon on how much God loves me overall a spectacular day but through out the whole day i just had something in the back of my head i was sad which is rare for me (i acted like nothing was wrong the whole night) smiled, laughed, goofed off, but inside i was utterly depressed i feel lonely.. i wish certain people were here i wish i was back home in my trampoline with my best friend just so i could vent and complain and yell and they would still love me unconditionally here there are very few people i can do that with (maybe 2) it’s hard i love life and am very optimistic about life and i believe things will get better just right now i feel empty, worthless. I know i am not i know i am loved, and cherished but yet that doesn’t make the pit in my stomach any smaller God willing sleep will make that all go away other wise idk… 

Stay Hungry Stay Foolish

first blog of 2012 On January 1st! All i can say is wow! Last year was probably the biggest year of my life. lots of changes, change in location (i moved to California from Tx) New family member (new baby brother Max James) new adventures (spontaneous trip to Vegas) New risks… overall so many new things. New friendships and kept old ones stronger as well. overall 2011 was incredible and i believe 2012 will be more spectacular than ever thought possible. this year i want to chase dreams as if life depended on it, i want to smile so much Joel Osteen has nothing on me, i want to be so positive a complete stranger feels happier just by my passing; I wanna leave my mark on 2012 as the year that i conquered and gave everything i ever did everything i had. I’m not going to chase love…i’m going to let it find me! I wanna dream bigger, laugh harder, love stronger and live life as if it were my last day! so many quotes i have to start my Year that i thought i’d share with y’all. maybe it will inspire to you to keep strong go hard, and never let anyone tell you you can’t do anything. I am also posting my new Year’s Resolutions so the whole world can see and hold me to them :) enjoy!

NYResolutions

-draw closer to my savior Jesus Christ (I’ve learned he knows best)

-Work out 5xaweek for 1hr a day! (This is my year to be healthy inside and out)

-Save money for after graduation from internship 

-laugh Louder

-love as if you’ve never faced heart break

-Dream BIGGER 

-never let ANYONE tell you that you can’t do anything! 

-be humble (pride always comes before a fall, instead be greatful for leadership and grateful for every learning experience 

Quotes

“Stay Hungry Stay Foolish”- Steve Jobs 

this quote meant the world to me this year because it reminded me one of the biggest innovators of our time reminded us to stay committed to our dreams, to not let the world tell you that you can;t do something  give it your everything and you will succeed

“what Would you do if you knew you could not fail? Now go out and do that” -New Years Eve Movie 

i love this quote because as humans we constantly think what if, or who is better than us, or how we aren’t capable, we think about all the bad but we never take time to think of the good; what if our dream actually do come true. This year think of your life and everything you do as if you could not fail! give it your all, chase it like there is no tomorrow, and DO IT!

“LIVE like no one today so you can LIVE like no one else tomorrow” _ Dave Ramsey 

our generation is a generation that feels it must copy everything the world does or do everything in pairs, no one chooses to be an original any more and that is why so many dreams stay dreams, so many goals never get accomplish, so many people regret quitting or just life in general because they chose to fit in now and follow the crown rather than be the lonely one and give it their all. I want to Act, i want to have a toned body, i want to save money and travel the world but i can’t do anything like that if i follow my friends, i cant get thin if i only go when friends want to go, i can’t travel if i don’t save money, i can’t make it as an actress if i don’t give it my all even on vacation rather than relax. this year i am going to choose to live like no one else so that years from now i can live like no one else preferably while visiting london! 

“frienship isn’t about who you’ve known the longest, it’s about who has come into your life and has never left you”- anonymous

i devote myself to friendships.. i will be a sister, a work buddy, whatever you need will be there 24/7 but i have learned that just because i have known someone 6yrs doesn’t mean they are my best friend while someone i have known for a short while may be. this year i am learning who are life long friends and who are friends who talk about being lifelong friends yet are never there for you. I am cleaning out my closet of friends and keeping the ones that have been there for me and make an effort.. and i am throwing away the ones that i thought i loved but in reality just take and had hardly ever been there for me. we are worth diamonds so why are settling for ashes? 

there it is and now our journey begins 

2012 BRING IT ON 

love?

why do girls create the craziest perceptions of infatuation and call it love? Why do we think that if a guy calls us he is crazy about us? why do we think if they hang out with us they’re in love with us? Love is a funny crazy thing… so many times we think we know what love actually is.. whether it’s a special feeling in your stomach, weak knees, every long song that pops up reminds you of them… there have been so many times i have thought i was in love and then months later i’m “in love” with someone else….. to be in love you feel you can share absolutely everything in the world with that person…. you can be honest and raw, and real and they will still accept you, laugh at you, laugh with you, and genuinely care about you. i don’t judge or try not to when someone tells me a deep secret or something of their past… yet  only once or twice in my life can i remember when a friend would tell me something intense, something horrifying that he finds beautiful, everything about his past and yet i still truly love him… i think that is what love is when you don’t care about what the rest of the world thinks, when you truly love that person regardless what they did in their past or are doing now even, that person that in reality you spend a few hours with them once every few months yet nothing has changed, you tell each other everything, you vent and let them cuss and laugh and can sit in pure silence and just smile.. those late night talks in a hammock where no one says anything, nothing occurs but you don’t want that moment to end bc you are together… love is different to everyone. i think love is when someone makes you feel breathe taking, magical, and like a fairy tale.. disney wan’t the only creator of Fairy tales. we create them everyday if we choose to. i love him but true love is letting him be with someone else if it means he will be so happy becasue thats all that matters and maybe down the line he will want me to be that girl in his love story. idk all i do know is that love is a rare precious simple, wonderful, complex, mystic, intense emotion, feeling, thing! and we are blessed and cursed to experience something so enchanting. 

traveler

I love traveleing

Right now I am getting ready to board a flight from La to Houston and I cannot wait!! People get so tired of flying, so annoyed with it but I absolutely adore it. I think it is because I am an explorer, a curious cat, a wanderer! I wanna explore every place I can and though I already call both of these places home I love getting on a plane forgetting about social networking for a few hours, spending time thinking, reading, listening to music and especially people watching. Everyone needs to catch a plane at some point in their lives. Right now “Fireflies” by OwlCity is playing and my heart is all happy. Such fun peaceful music, as well as a reminder of optimism. Officially 6 days til Christmas and I am so excited to be leaving and spending time with the most amazing people in my life. To go home and see my parents and mazing brothers as well as best friends and share with them the many adventures I’ve experienced and conquered I smile with love and relief to see them and relax. It’s a beautiful thing when reality is quite wonderful but then again I wouldn’t wanna live there ;) make everything an adventure the simplest things because that is how we are able to live a life of pure joy. Yes we face trials but that is part of the adventure!!! Trials come because we are strong enough to face them and are meant to beat them and learn from them.  We as the traveler should go with the biggest imaginiation, and a wonderful spirit I ;ove traveleing and hope to do much of it in the near future cheers to life xxx

finish Strong

SO I think since it is officially 14 days til the end of the2011 I’ve decided to finish strong! Yesterday my pastor did an incredible message! With the new year so close so many people are starting to think of New Years Resolutions and what they want to make better in the beginning of the new year! Why wait two weeks to start working out, why wait two weeks to start working harder at work, why wait two weeks to start chading your passions! Why wait!!! Start NOW!!! If you want to start working out do it today!!! Make better eating choices rather than stuffing yourselves now and thinking in two weeks you can lose it all then. Life isn’t about tomorrow it’s about today. People don’t say start chasing your dreams tomorrow, or start working out tomorrow people that choose to start something tomorrow never start their goals. I say lets start now!!! AND FINISH THIS YEAR STRONG! If you finish 2011 with getting drunk, and so wasted you wake up in 2012 with an aweful hangover,  that you don’t even want to start 2012 til 5 in the afternoon.  End the year of right and you will start the next year with a bang

spoiled blessings

mmm :) 

I never thought i would appreciate life so much the way i’ve learn to appreciate it recently, even on a budget, even in a dorm with 3 other girls, even with cafeteria food, even with no car, even with completely loosing many earthly positions I honestly treasure life so much more than i have in a long time. I wake up almost every day with a big smile on my face excited to see what GOD is going to do that day! Honestly Jesus doesn’t just bless me he spoils me!! when I, you, anyone wakes up and has an incredible attitude, and lets God be everything, the things that happen are incredible. For so long while i was here i was so focused on the friends i need to make and how close i need to be with my room mates and if any guy here is “the one” and just so much little petty things that i did not need to concern myself with!! When i get up in the morning i get up and say “God YOU do what you want to occur for me today” and i go about my day.. i listen to my leaders, I follow my schedule, i try to be as much of a servant as possible and God brings me everything from free dinners, connections, incredible new amazing friends, amazing opportunities, peace in my room every week i say this has been the best week of my life and honestly as cliche’ as it sounds every week it does get better, things do go much more amazing than i anticipated, and Jesus doesn’t just show up he takes over and pours blessing down. Its absolutely amazing the difference, obedience and surrender will make :) 

I’m so excited to see what more my savior does for me! i cannot wait to discover all the treasures he has in store for me in HIS timing :) 

Psalm 121:7-8 ⁷ The LORD will keep you from all harm 

he will watch over your life; 

⁸ the LORD will watch over your coming and going 
   both now and forevermore.